a gift

yesterday the litigator gave me something. after church he took all the kids but the napping one and left. they went for a drive, they explored nature. i was home in the quiet (almost) alone. i made some cookies for a baptism fireside later and was so filled by the silence. the only noises in the house were those made by me. it is something that i don't think about often, life just is children underfoot. and sometimes i go somewhere by myself, alone. but the quality of alone-ness is different when you're at home. it was such a pleasure to feel the quiet warm afternoon peace and think my own thoughts. i am so grateful for his loving awareness.